And so it has arrived. My daughters final day at pre-school. I held that precious little hand as we walked to the gates, and part of me lamented at the loss of something I couldn’t quite put my finger on, because after all, I’m not losing anything. She’s still my baby and always will be even when she’s ruling the world, running her own empire, or being the vet/ballet teacher/princess that she is currently aspiring to be.
At the same time, I was insanely proud that this little thing who, four and a half years ago turned my world upside down, nearly broke me, made me braver and taught me how to chill the eff out and just enjoy the ice cream. I was proud of us both: me for realising that being employed wasn’t working for us anymore, and her for being the joyous, adventurous, brave soul that she is. She feels the fear (ballet shows, making friends, jumping from impossibly high things) and does it anyway.
Last week at pre-school Sienna and her friends set free the butterflies they’ve been nurturing from caterpillar to chrysalis, and I couldn’t help but reflect on how I feel that some September, she will be flying off with her beautiful young wings into a world in which I eventually will no longer be at the centre of.
I also notice the parallels with my own business as there are plans afoot which will mean change for me too*. I’ve been talking to clients and friends who are also business owners and it seems there are quite a few of us out there that are experiencing some sort of flux. Is it the time of year? Is it the lunar effect? Whatever it is, when it’s done I feel like our businesses are all going to be brighter, shiner versions of themselves. It might get a little scary, like that first day at school, but let’s all push on through that fear because what’s on the other side is going to be beautiful!
*Clients – we are all still cool. There is no change there!